It happened to me once that I fell for this one guy I had as a buddy, close friend, and the best confidant one can ever have. He's a very smart guy and he talks with sense all the time. I am a dominant woman myself but he's someone who really knows when to put me into place and I admire the way he handle things.
He makes good decisions and once he focuses himself to one goal, nothing "I guess" can ever disturb him because he is one serious guy.
Good times I had with him always reminded me of the feeling of being loved and of being cared for. He may not have become a friend "to the next level" who made committment with me but I appreciate him always being there.
I was able to let him know what I felt for him...guess what?... I did not get any response. That time I had the thought that I will never have the guts to see him or even talk to him again because of embarassment. I stopped sending him text messages and stopped sending him letters as well because I know that since he did not respond, he might have not liked what I did.
We had a common friend who went to Taiwan for almost a year before we even stopped seeing each other. When our common freind came home, she was very insistent to see my guy again because they were also close. She made a way for us to go out together and that day came to pass...
What I thought is that he would change his treatment on me. I was thinking that he might even stop talking to me anymore but it was really WEIRD... whn I saw him, it felt like nothing has changed... he treated me with the same attention and sweetness he had for me before and he still cannot do things on his own knowing that I was on his side to help him out do simple things and finish them.
Now I am bothered...I don't know where to place myself...I did expect a lot I guess that's why I am being troubled of the treatment I am getting... I just find it really WEIRD that he came to visit me in my house a week after just to chat with me and watch movies at home while having a good conversation about the things that happened to us in the past...WEIRD...but I know I still love him until now despite all the things that happened... I just don't know when I will find out his true feelings for me...I wish he'd let me know as well, it has been three years that I've waited for the answer for the questions about WHO I REALLY AM TO HIM....
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Weird....
@ 2007-05-15 – 04:13:47
